A New Year (and how I disappeared)

I think the “happy” in “Happy New Year” is finally showing up. When I last posted, it was Christmas. Turtle and I had a lovely day. We relaxed at home in the morning, exchanging gifts and opening gifts from my out-of-town family. We then visited our friends and their new twin babies to cook dinner for all. It was a good day.

Then, Turtle got sick. It lasted a few days. It sucked for her.

Then, while Turtle was still recovering, I got sick. I’m still not fully recovered. On sick day 6, I ended up on a 10-day course of antibiotics that I think did nothing. I missed an extra week of work on top of the vacation I had planned for the Christmas-New Year’s week. It sucked royally for me.

We had a bit of a panic attack when getting the fem.ara. We called our pharmacy and were told it would be $456 for the five pills we needed. We thought briefly about going back to Cl.omid for a couple of cycles. Fortunately, a different pharmacy had the generic and my insurance did cover it. I’m feeling very grateful for my excellent insurance.

Then, I messed up taking the meds. I kept forgetting it. Remember, I was sick and not sleeping and pretty much barely able to handle what was right in front of my face. So for some of the days I took the meds much later in the day than others. I thought Turtle was going to tear her hair out because I was so frustrating for her that week. She really is a good sport.

I also missed one of my acupuncture appointments.

Last week, I started seeing darker and darker lines on the opks. Turtle arranged to pick up the tank of swimmers on Thursday. I was convinced I’d see a +opk on Friday or Saturday.

I was wrong. Of course I was wrong. This couldn’t be easy, could it?

I just kept reminding myself that we could always take the swimmers back and skip the cycle if I never surged. It wasn’t like November where the tank wouldn’t last until the lab was open. Mostly, I kept my cool waiting for that +opk.

Finally, this morning the smiley showed its face. We inseminated tonight around 6ish. It was slick. My cervix looked great; everything was open. We’ll do a second insemination tomorrow morning before work.

Crossing my fingers!

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